Personal Mission Statement

What am i trying to achieve? Bare with me as i translate feeling into word.. Being a member of both the outer-world (everything external to my body - landscape) and a member of an inner-world (a kind of mindscape) i feel at the mercy of strong habit/behavior patterns accumulated growing up.

I'm learning to become familiar with the space in which i can have at least some say,choice, negotiation to go through with the action/deed or not. So it doesnt stay on a purely mechanistic knee-jerk action/reaction response level with a part of me that is observing it happening in a horrified manner.

In other words..i want to learn more about the things that drive me away from, or better yet, to preserve, the state that i feel after a wonderful hatha yoga class, walking through the woods, or just maintaining a present moment awareness..like right NOW.

im currently using the yogic science model to do just this...